.:Its all over..:.

Nice message..

2005-02-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

Was browsing thru friendster and saw this message on the bulletin.. I shall dedicate this to all my frens out there.. and especially to my bf.

When a gal crys...

If a gal cries in front of u,

it means dat she couldnt take it anymore.

If u take her hand,

she would stay with u 4 de rest of ur life.

If u let her go, she couldn't go back 2 being herself anymore.

A gal wont cry easily;

except in front of de person who she love the most, she becomes weak.

A gal wont cry easily;

only when she love u the most, she put down her ego.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,

please hold her hands firmly,

she's the one who would stay with u 4 de rest of ur life.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,

please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of ur decision, u ruin her life.

When she cry rite infrnt of u,

When she cry bcoz of u,

Look into her eyes,

Can u see n feel de pain n hurt she's feelin?

Think.

Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity,Infront of u,And bcoz of u?

She cry not because she is weak,

She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,

She cry,

Because cryin silently is no longer possible,

De pain,hurt,n agony hav bcome 2 big aburden 2 bkept inside.

Guys,Think about it,

If a gal cry her heart out 2 u,

And all because of u,

Its time 2 look back on wat u hav done,

Only u will know de answer 2 it.

Do consider it,

Coz one day,It may b 2 late 4 regrets,

It may b 2 late 2 say "im sorry".

To my friends...Ponder this message seriously. Dont do dis to a gal. You may regret 4 de rest of ur life. Maybe in ur life, she's the onli one dat love u de most. Remember dis lesson.

Wat's up..

2005-02-22T18:09:00.000+08:00

hey peeps, its been such a long time since i last blogged. So sorry for not keep u guys updated.
Been realli busy since the end of last sem's exams. Worked n shopped alot during the hols..
Dun realli have the mood to blog anymore. dunno why.. argHh.

Anyway i juz came back from a trip to KL wif my bf (Shannon), Ivan and Tania.. yeapie.. Quite shocked to realise that i actually bought quite some stuff.. although i tot there was nothing much to shop. Took quite some pics.. will have them uploaded soon and i shall tell u guys more abt our trip den.

Oh ya.. did i mentioned that i finally learnt how to play mahjong over Chinese new year?? All thanx to brenda, jac and angela.. hahah although they taught me quite a number of wrong concepts. :P And god.. i think i am addicted to mahjong!!

New skiN~

2004-11-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

yeaH~! I've changed a new skin for my blog.. finally I am able to part with my previous skin.. *sobZ* I still quite like it though.. Mayb I will use it again in the future. Anyway, I am still using a similar layout which I feel its quite neat n tidy. Soothing to readers too.

Yup.. as u may have guessed, my new blogskin is still done by the same person. HmmZ.. she is really good. I have fallen in love with her work. Amazed by her style.

"Evone, keep up ur good work!!~"

Btw, does anyone know whether blogger is lagging?? Cos the blog that I posted yesterday is still not up. And my new skin can onli be seen in some of my archive files. Some of the archives are still in the old skin format... WHY why why.... Is there something wrong??

Updating..

2004-11-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys.. its been a long time since I last blogged..
alot of things had happened to me during this period, glad that biG zeRo was there for me.

"thanx dear for being there. sorry for the unreasonable flare ups I gave u. You were very nice and accomodating towards me. "

Anyway, I've also been very busy recently with my projects and exams. Juz had a test yesterday which I think I did quite badly. HiakZ. Still got 2 more tests to go... one on tml.. and the next one on the coming tues. Den it will be the start of my study break till my final exams.. Oh god.. Horror.. So fast, its the coming to the end of another semester.

Didn't realli wan to blog until after my exams, but i was updating my blogsite's song, so decided to put in a blog anyway. Last nite on Singapore Idol, i heard Olinda Cho performed the song 'Superwoman'.. Wow.. its so nice man. So i decided to use it for my blogsite.

"Olinda, tat was a great job~!"

Well, I think I should get back to studying again.. Won't be blogging in the near future. Unless, I decided to update my blogsite again, or when I go crazy from studying.

Good luck and all the best to those who are having ur exams~! Study hard and take care :P

9 months :)

2004-10-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

wOohoo.. its our 9 months together le. Hmmz, compared to Sherywn and Jane's 3 yr relationship, ours may seem so insignificant. But I am glad we have stuck by each other this far. :P

Went to watch the new Jackie Chan's show.. (New Police Story) wif daR dar yesterday. I am not quite a fan of Jackie's action movies, but i muz say its a nice show. Good storyline. Amusing at the appropriate moments. After the movie, we went out for dinner wif my family. Had bbq fish and sotong and lots of other food. First time I ate so much sotonG!! Dear oso ate alot (2 BIG plates of rice) cos he was damn hungry.

Den we went to west coast park for some quiet moments. Wanted to play at the playgrounds there but stupid me -->I wore a mini-skirt yesterdaY!! Arghh.. in the end we can onli play limited stuff.. There is this swirling thingy... deaR made me stand on it den he started turning n turning me..

'For one moment, i tot the sotongs i ate were going to come out of my mouth!!'

Had a realli enjoyable nite.

Anway, I managed to upload songs onto my blog todaY!! yeah~~~ However, currently I am indecisive between 2 songs : Shakespears in love OR Accidentally in love. Which one is better?? Can anyone out there give me some opinions?? :)

Misunderstandings

2004-10-03T14:03:00.000+08:00

To my bestest fren:

I have been realli unhappy abt wat happened. I don't know abt you. It seems to me tat u are living off fairly well. Happy wif ur life and everything. You have everyone ard you. You are able to tell everyone abt how u feel and get their support. But i got no one to talk to. Everything is being bottled up inside me.

'How i wish i would juz burst one day and die.'

If you life is so great now, mayb i should juz leave u alone?

'Is this the end of our frenship?.. seriously i don't know.'

I didn't want things to turn out this way.. i realli don't. I had replied in ur blog. Go read it.

aRmy heRe i coMe~!

2004-09-30T22:28:00.000+08:00

Big zeRo's younger bro(sherywn) was being enlisted to the army today! Heard tat his gf(Jane) cried n cried when he left. HiaKz hiakZ~

Last nite, all of us (his family, Jane and I) went to East Coast Long Beach Restuarant for dinner.. Sort of farewell dinner for sherywn. Hmmz.. their mum crieD during dinner.

After dinner, biG zeRo, I, Sherywn and Jane went to Chervon for KTV session. Gary joined us there. Had an enjoyable time.

I cut my hair yesterday too.. quite short. :P

totaLLy BuRneD ouT..

2004-09-26T13:18:00.000+08:00

Past 2 weeks was so stressed out.. tests and assignment deadlines.. ArgH!
And next week.. more tests and assignments to be completeD.. How am I going to survive?

Anyway, spent last nite at my biG zeRo's place. We celebrated his sister's 17th birthday. Had BBQ at his place. Alot of pple came..mostly her frens. Their relatives oso came by. Played with his nephew throughout the BBQ. Quite funny.. hahaa. Cos everyone was asking how come we got so much things to talk about. Before he went home (ard 11+pm), he told me "Jie Jie, muz remember the games okaY? Next time we play again."

After everyone left, biG zeRo and I sort of helped to clear up the place before heading for a bath.. Hmmz..dear biG zeRo was abit drunk by tat time.. But he still accompanied me to watch 'Spirit of the Vengence' - which is quite a dumb vcd show. We both fell asleep halfway.

Huiyu's DancE performaNce~

2004-09-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

Went for my good fren, Huiyu's (aka fishy aka fishie) dance concert @ UCC last nite. Also present were biG zeRo (hahaha..he kena forced to go by me.. but in the end he enjoyed it!), Jac, Qinlei, Huimei and Brenda.

Fishie had warned us before coming for the performance taT it's quite chiM.. so we muz read the background writeup on the program sheet so tat we can better understand the whole show. The performance started off a little boring but got much better towards the end. There was this particular dance segment tat I personally liked besT.. the one where all of them wore this white 'flasher'-like outfit.. the dance was very nice~!! In another dance segment, which got the group of us laughing was the one with the telephones hanging in the air. Its so funny.. the dancers were all trying to talk on their 'phones' at the same time. And fishie's voice was the most distinctive!! I can still remember wat she said.. "I want fishball noddles... Ah..veery hot aR.." hahahaA... Overall, the performance was quite good. Well done NUS Synergy!

too bad they din allowed us to take pics during the performance..

We waited for fishie after the concert to take picS.. wanted to ask her to pose in her sexY costume but she simply refuseD.. hahaha

frenS @ UCC to supporT fishY~
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fisHy n me afteR her performancE
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all of uS~ nice performancE fishY..
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We went to Fong Seng for prata before heading home~ didn't wait for fishie cos she said she still got to settle some miscellaneous stuff wif her dance members.

its been a long time..

2004-09-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging for sometime. Alot of things happened. I feel so tireD and lost, i dunno what I should do.

Firstly, the misunderstanding wif my bestest fren has gotten worse. And now we aren't talking anymore. She mentioned to 'break' the frenship. What shld I do? Anyway, it seems tat she is happy the way she lives now.. so i guess mayb i shld juz let it go.

"God, I am losing my frens.."

Next, my granny has been admitted in the hospital (NUH). She felt pain in at her side, thought tat she fell and got a fracture in the ribs. But X-ray showed no fracture.. only a dark shadow over her lungS! Docs suspect might be lung canceR.

"nO! Dun take my granny away too.."

lastly, my Mid-terms CAs are coming soon.. HelP~!

CeLebRatinG our 8 MoNths together~

2004-09-05T18:14:00.001+08:00

YeaH yeah.. its our 8 months togetheR.. so happy! I'm the gf who's been wif him for the longest..
Eh.. the actual date was supposed to be on the 3Rd of August la.. but becos i need to go to scH n i got my cca commitments after tat..so we were not able to celebrate. But we had our belated celebration yesterday :)

Went to sch in the mornz den forgot to pass forms to my senior.. so got to go back to sch.. thuS.. had to meet dear very very late.. ard 3+pm. When I finally got home from sch, deaR called n asked wat movie will we be watching later so he could book the tickets online 1st. Who knows.. the cinema system was down.. making us so fedup. But nvm.. we decided to go down personally to get the tickets.

We went to PS to purchase our tickets.. wOw.. the queue was sooo lonG..... dunno wat's the occasion.. how come everybody is watching movies. Den deaR saw these new machines thingY.. "self service ticketing" i suppose.. so we decided to try it since there isn't much of a queue. However, to our dismay the machines do not work due to some system error. haiZz.. this is technologY~! In the end we had to join the long never ending queue to get our tickets. As we got nearer to the ticketing booths, they started announcing tat some shows only haf the front seats left. Afraid tat we can't get our tickets.. i kept my fingers crossed. Finally.. we managed to get tickets for our shoW ' Anacondas: the Hunt for the Blood orchid' @ 10.30pm.. Happy n satisfied, we went shoppinG.

Dear wanted to get a pair of pants, while i need to get tons of stuff.. my U.R.s. shoes, my adidas waterbottle..etc etc.. But something unhappy happened while shopping. deaR met his fren.. a gal.. quite pretty, at least i think prettier den me. I got quite jealous so i juz walked out of the shop. Dear was very angry wif me. "i'm so sorry.. but i couldn't help being jealous." But we made up after awhile. :)

hMmz.. i din buy the U.R.s. shoes... cos i decided tat i dun look good in them n i dunno how shld i match theM wif my clothes. saw this pinK fila bag... wah..very nice.. price oso reasonable.. but din buy yet cos i need sometime to tink if i realli need it. dun wan to waste money maH! Den, we proceed on to Heeren.

On the way to heeren, i bought a tube top at the flea market along Meridian hotel.. good buy! its very nice.. n i got it at $19.90.. hahaha.. i saw it at heeren after tat..but was selling @ $29.90.. wow, luckily i din get 'zhan cai tou'. at heeRen, we walked ard.. looking for deaR's pants but could not find it.. in the end i bought a bag instead... its a tote.. very nice.. i wanted it long ago.. but could not find it. HiakZ.. i went to the adidas shop but was told tat the pink waterbottle was out of stocK!

Next, we went to far east plaza.. i saw this black dress.. very nice on the mannequin. so i went to try it on.. it looks nice..juz tat the straps felt weird. but dear says its nice. den i compared myself wif the mannequin n realised cos.. i dun haF BIG breasts like the mannequin, tat's y the straps look weird. Plus, the shop assistant kept saying tat there is only one more left, which means alot of pple already bought it.. so if i get it means.. many others will be wearing the same dress as me! thus, i did not purchase it.

Finally, dear found the pants he wanted. he tried n was satisfied. so he bought it. yeah.. task accomplisheD. We walked past Candle, Anson's shop, went in to chat wif him for awhile before going for our dinner.. Poor dear dear was so hungrY tat he ate two plates of rice!!

After dinner, we took bus back to PS to watch our movie.. Its quite a nice show.. got story..got plot.. the effects were nice too.. gross n scary. heeZ..

The following are some pics taken yesterday:

me N biG zeRo on buS 106.. goinG to PS for movie.
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another pic taken on the bus while on the waY to PS.
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big zeRO, thanX for everything!

It's our 8 months..

2004-09-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

AnnouncinG excitedly " HappY 8 monthS biG zeRO"! :)

I'm so glad we r still together after numerous quarrels and arguments. I guessed they brought us closer rite?

So sorry biG zeRo, can't spent today wif u..

But he was so nice n sweeT.. he drove all the way frm home to yishun to pick me up from cca (ard 10 plus pm). Den he brought me for supper, knowing tat i wont get to eat much for dinner when i haf cca and i will be hungrY.

Thanx dear :P

anyway a msg to a once close fren of mine-->"yah, we r still together. surprised? or u still dun trust him at all? u never gave him a chance." (not sure if u will be reading this..)

PisSeD oFF~

2004-09-01T16:31:00.000+08:00

arGGhh.... i dun mean to complain. But i realli need to let off some anger.

Today, my lab group were supposed to meet up to discuss abt our group lab report. Well, all the group members did turn up. We had earlier agreed tat all of us come up wif our own full lab report den meet n discuss stuff tat we r not sure of so that it will be easier for the person in charge of compiling the reports.

Apparently, all of us did our reports except of this particular person, whom i shall not mention her name. Let's juz call her C.

I do not realli haf a good impression of her due to the compilation of the lab reports she did last week. Wat she handed in was a last min kind of thing.. all copy n paste from the others reports and she did not even bother to make sure tat the contents flow well thru the reports. All was in a mess.. a very irresponsible person i should say (tat was why we decided to meet up this week to do our report). So i gave her a "C" grade for peer evaluation last week.

Today, she came for discussion empty handed without anything done!! She had not done her report yet when all of us had already more or less finished with ours. So how is she going to contribute to the dicussion? While the rest of us were discussing she din even bother to listen, she juz sat at a side and started to type her lab report on the spot! I mean, what's the point of doing it now?? WE have already started on dicussion.. so u shld at least listen and see what u can help.. rite?

Finally when we were almost done, den she suddenly announced loudly " so.. wat else do we have to do huh?" aRggh.... i feel like strangling her. She is juz trying to take shortcuts rite? trying to do the least work! Nvm tat.. so i told her what was still left undone... den she replied innocently " reali? u mean we need to do these questions??" --> is she trying to act blur or waT~!... our TA already written clearly on the board tat we need to include discussions for those questions into our report!

So this week, her grade has dropped to a "D". We shall see how she progress in the following weeks before the final peer evaluation.

Wisdom TootH

2004-08-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

I had all 4 of my wisdom tooth (top n bottom, left n right sides) removed on 20th Aug 04. Yes.. all 4 in one day.. Admire me? hahaa.. i regretted right after i woke up from the surgery. My mouth was so bloodY keep feeling like i wan to vomit! Worse still, my lips was so swollen tat i can't close my mouth properly, and the blood+ saliva juz keep flowing out.. My face was so puffy i could not see my on chiN!!

Over 2 weeks, i had to endure the pain n swelling of my gums and the stitches tat irritate my gums. Can't realli sleep well. But was glaD biG zeRo and my family was there for me.

I was So happy tat i could finally remove my stitches. Went to National Dental Centre today to have my stitches for my wisdom tooth surgery removed. anD a check shows tat i am recovering well and there are no signs of infection. Yeah.. but however, there is still some bruise visible ard my chin area. and the dentist says tat to fully recover might take abt a month.

Well, i shld b thankful tat there isn't any complications after the surgery. Also, my face's skin did not saG after all those stretching when my face was swolleN! ;p

YiPpee...

2004-08-29T10:36:00.000+08:00

Had an enjoyable nite at the padang last nite. Went for the ZpoP concert by zaobaO wif biG zeRo and my bro. The concert was great overall.. I got to see my faV... ENERGY.. wOohOo.

The beginning was abit let down.. partly cos of the crowd.. and partly cos of the performers. Most of the crowd wasn't warmed up yet.. alot were juz hanging ard.. sitting in their own group on the grass. The first few performers weren't realli tat famous except for 1 or 2.. I guess tat explains the crowd's attitude.

However, the WORST part of the concert was when u begin to realise hordeS n hordeS of He Yao Sun..(or watever her name is spelt.. u know who.. tat singaporean singer) fans moving on to the concert grounds wif big signboard declaring their love n support for her. Oh goD.. save theM! basically i dun realli like her.. and i dun think she has what it takes to haf so many pple worshipping her! anD den, she came.. on stage to perform. i couldn't be bothered to see her.. but those big images of her in tat belly/tummy revealing outfit flashed on the screen agaiN n again.. irritating the hell out of me! Come on, u r pregnant for god's sake.. spare a thought for ur child. Its so damN obvious tat those 'fans' of hers r juz there to support her. Once her segment ended, all of them juz walked out of the concert.. DuhZ! *who knows, maybe they were forced to come to support her.. or they were given free tickets?* But, i was quite amused taT.. while she was performing.. tons of light sticks were thrown onto the stage - at some point i toT i saw a plastic bag flew onto the stage! [mayb its a kind of support for her? or shld i say pple hate her.. n wanted her to stop performing?- i leave it to u guys to figure it out :)]

Hahaha... the momenT of the concert came when F.I.R. performed~! woW, they realli rocks! Theirs was the onli segment tat got the whole crowd at padang standing on their feet, rocking to the music, and screaming along wif theM. The crowd's rendition of F.I.R.'s songs was so cleaR and uniteD! Once again, well done F.I.R.!!

Finally, its my ENERGY's turn. However, we did not stayed till they finished performing cos biG zeRo wasn't feeling well and we did not wan to squeeze our way home wif the hundreads of pple present. Anyway, BiG zeRo and my brother were sweet enuFF to let me listen to Energy sing two songs, before we made our way home~! I know they simply dislike Energy but becos of me they gave in. ThanX to u guys.

Looking forwarD to more concerts..

SeNtOsa ouTiNg :P

2004-08-25T18:43:00.000+08:00

I have posted some photoS taken during ouR (big zeRo 'n' I) outing to sentosa wiF Ivy and her boyfren.

deaR n me on cable caR.. goinG sentosa~
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biG zeRo n me @siloso beacH..
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biG zeRo and I @siloso beacH
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FinaLLy Blog is Up N Running~ :)

2004-08-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

Yup yup.. after putting it off for such a long time.. I finally got myself to start my blog. Hmmz.. I tot it was an easy task.. juz register.. and taDa u get ur blog..

But i was seriously wrong! Once I started, I was overwhelmed by the amount of things you haf know how to do.. well, unless u juz wan a plain blog.
Blogger.com, blogskins, how to post photos, tag-board... and the list goes on.. Oh God.. I had to surf thru so many websites... juz like doing a sch project, to finally decide on everything. Luckily, I have learnt some html skills in one of my modules taken last sem.. to help me wif my editing of the blogskin..

Well, I should say that I am quite satisfied with my present blog - the colors (pink my fav, of cos), the layout, the picture.. hMmz.. not to plain or too complicateD.. Gives people a soothing effect to read my blog i suppose. Most importanly, photos tat i uploaded do not clash wif the design. anywaY aloT of credit goes out to EvOnE who came up wif the blogskiN. ThaNx gal.

Juz some explanations about my blog.. The sitename.. luvin-bigzerO.. bigzero is the pet name I gave to my deaR boyfreN. So, u guys shld noe the reason now. aNd proudLy, I am his sMaLL zeRo. The site title - I am alive (duhz.. haha) but dreaming most of the time.

okieZ.. shall blog again some other time.. to let u guys noe more abt me. :)

.:*Its all over..*:.